My jaw is dropped at the fact that tomorrow is the last day of July 2018. I’m sure yours is hanging to your chest, too, because that’s the response I get from just about everyone when the topic of time comes up. It all just flies. I haven’t been here, in this little blogging world of a space, all year. How is that? Do Instagram captions and work emails take up all the extra words and typing power? It’s possible, I suppose.
This time, I think I’ll be back for good. Not because I have to. But because I want to. Because it’s calming. Because I had two choices when I walked through my door tonight: To turn on my own laptop and blog or my work laptop and wrap up projects from today so that I feel better tomorrow. Today, the latter finally lost.
2018 has be a whew! sort of year. I’ll probably touch on some of it in later blog posts. I want to share all the happy moments so they inspire you and remind you that there is good even when we’re not so sure where. And to remind me, too.
Oh, how I’ve missed this space. I never meant for 10 months — wow, really? — to pass before coming back here to write and reflect and share. I have spent eight years here, sharing my smallest and most mundane moments, most of which become those fragments of life that stay in my mind the strongest. I love to look back on the months and years and remember the details. The way I felt in that cafe sharing a scone with an old friend. The strong smell of spices that fill my mom’s kitchen when we make tamales, and the family arguments that never fail to ensue. Seeing snapshots of special dishes that helped to turn an impromptu hangout into meaningful, soulful gatherings with friends and loved ones.
And so, here I am.
I am back.
At least I am going to try to be.
I often go through phases where it’s hard to get what I want to say shoot through my fingers and onto the keyboard, but never for 10 months. I may have felt a little stuck. I may still feel a little stuck, but that doesn’t mean I can’t just come here with the little bit I can manage to get out once in a while.
A lot has happened since March. Day trips. New recipes. Goal lists. Friendships. Summer. Oh — you know how I love summer. And oh yeah: I bought a home. All by myself. Yep, there was that. Just that one little distraction.
I may not have been here talking about these things, but I was still snapping them. Mostly. Which means I’ll share a whole lot on these things very soon.
And I’m excited. Because so many strangers have written to me, asking me to come back here. And because this is a place that I have come to realize helps me sort and make sense of a lot of life.
So, thank you for reading.